To be where i am..

:) Sometime, i think you know what i'm talking about, but you just act like you don't care. I mean, why is your ego so freaking big lol. Just accept it like, gosh! Okay, so i am here to tell myself that i got to do  certain things, for my sake, and.. theirs. So its me daddy's birthday today, and i got him a pretty card. :) it said, "little girls love their daddies, even when they're all grown up.." :) Heh. Yeahh, i do. Oh god, why am i so bored. Just wish i had a car, and a bag full of money to run free and do what i want to.. :( *sniffsniff* Christmas is around the corner and i just want to get the best of it before they leave, and before i finally decide what is the right thing to do.. for me, and the people around me. I never thought making a decision would be so hard. I don't wanna leave the country but, i think i want to, so i can be alone for awhile.. I don't wanna influence the ones around me to do the same as i. And, sometimes, its nicer to miss then actually, have it.. and soon get bored of it. Get what i mean? : / Life itself is weird. Cause, school was supposed to be hard, but this.. it beyond what most of us had imagined. Maybe its time..
love.