Here i am, once again..

Trust. 

Hey bloggy. Okay, so i have accounts paper tomorrow. :( And Literature. With all this in my head, i have another worry. What is it that i don't understand. Never blogged for a long time and this is going to be one hell of a sad post. Letting go is one thing. But giving a second chance takes a lot of courage. And in this case, i guess i did. And i know why i did that. But now, i'm feeling things i'm not supposed to be. But then again, i asked for this.. And i should let it be, and give it a chance. If you didn't know, its something hard to accept. But i'm facing it because i think we share mutual feelings. I want you to know that its going to take me some time to adapt this situation. Cause, i don't know what my reaction should be. I want to trust you but you didn't leave me with a choice. :( I'm trying as much as you are to make it work, to make this feeling go away. Just that, i feel that, in someway, you'd be doing something behind my back.. and i'll never find out. Trust. I had it, now i don't know how to gain it.. I'm not making things worse. But, what the hell, you already know how i feel. And i know you're working for it too. So we'll see where it goes.. Asking for someone to trust you is hard, but doing something that will make them trust you is the way to gain someone's trust. And i know that you're doing what you should be. I want all the things you said you wanted from her. I'm standing exactly where you stood with her.. maybe now you'd know how i feel. Like you said, trust is like a paper, once its crumpled, it takes a long process to fix its shape..

P.s: You should know how much i love you, cause i'm letting myself go through this shit. : / Ily.