...because they said, the pain wont last forever.
Wednesday, May 29, 2013
Sunday, May 5, 2013
You've got a big ego.. such a big ego.
Alright.
So yes, i did come down to you. That did prove that my ego was really small, and that yours was much bigger than mine. You win? No. You lost. I thought all that fluttery was for me, but i guess not. :) Maybe i was right, cause right now, the one that is not talking is you. Not being able to explain yourself, you. Not letting it go, you. I tired, but you never understood why i did what i did. All you can think of is how much you are right, when you think you are, when you are not. NOT. I'm sorry, but you lost your chance. I was stupid enough to come back, and say sorry even. You couldn't care less. It's a pity cause, i think my years have been about dropping people as i go. You came into the list? You wanted to. I will miss you, cause i thought i might have you with me.. till someday. I thought. And i thought wrong. Don't i always? Haha. Talk about love, maybe i was the one that felt it. Loved you always. A passerby.
So yes, i did come down to you. That did prove that my ego was really small, and that yours was much bigger than mine. You win? No. You lost. I thought all that fluttery was for me, but i guess not. :) Maybe i was right, cause right now, the one that is not talking is you. Not being able to explain yourself, you. Not letting it go, you. I tired, but you never understood why i did what i did. All you can think of is how much you are right, when you think you are, when you are not. NOT. I'm sorry, but you lost your chance. I was stupid enough to come back, and say sorry even. You couldn't care less. It's a pity cause, i think my years have been about dropping people as i go. You came into the list? You wanted to. I will miss you, cause i thought i might have you with me.. till someday. I thought. And i thought wrong. Don't i always? Haha. Talk about love, maybe i was the one that felt it. Loved you always. A passerby.
You're the best I've ever had.
No more turning back.
♥
Thursday, May 2, 2013
I'm never here, unless..
After sometime, i should say.
What went wrong? Who knows. It's a difficult situation when you know that you did something that you will eventually regret. But that something meant a lot to me. We are hidden, and we are unknown. We shared so much, at least i think i did. Cause you were always so closed up about your life. It didn't bother me, tho. It's impossible to even ask you now to read this, and understand why i did what i did, but it's no use now. I should really be the one backing off. I went over my limit, i really did. I didn't realize it back then, but after having to see things that dug up the past, i had to force myself to walk into reality. If you didn't know, which i'm pretty sure you know cause i told you, i was once the girl who was fighting for her other half from some b*tch. Now looking at how situations are, i thought maybe it was my rights to actually ask to clarify things that i needed to know. Rude you think? Not a proper way? Cause i'm pretty sure compared to the way you answered me, the way i asked you was more like i was begging, and not questioning. I don't want to be a hypocrite in my own story, and that is why i asked. But you had to overreact. Just answering me would not kill, cause i remember you say, i wont hide a thing from you. I didn't, you did. What i saw, was what i saw. What i heard, was even more confusing to be compared to what i saw. So you had your pick. Walk away you say? That is what i did. Cause i've heard more painful words than the ones you threw at me. "Not my...to question me.." So i know where and what my position is. If there is one person to apologize, it is you. And i'm not looking forward to it, cause to you, this is a "challenge", nothing is a serious matter. So there you go. :) I do miss you, i thought we meant something. It's okay. It means nothing now, cause i've heard to much to believe that this is worth fighting for.
What went wrong? Who knows. It's a difficult situation when you know that you did something that you will eventually regret. But that something meant a lot to me. We are hidden, and we are unknown. We shared so much, at least i think i did. Cause you were always so closed up about your life. It didn't bother me, tho. It's impossible to even ask you now to read this, and understand why i did what i did, but it's no use now. I should really be the one backing off. I went over my limit, i really did. I didn't realize it back then, but after having to see things that dug up the past, i had to force myself to walk into reality. If you didn't know, which i'm pretty sure you know cause i told you, i was once the girl who was fighting for her other half from some b*tch. Now looking at how situations are, i thought maybe it was my rights to actually ask to clarify things that i needed to know. Rude you think? Not a proper way? Cause i'm pretty sure compared to the way you answered me, the way i asked you was more like i was begging, and not questioning. I don't want to be a hypocrite in my own story, and that is why i asked. But you had to overreact. Just answering me would not kill, cause i remember you say, i wont hide a thing from you. I didn't, you did. What i saw, was what i saw. What i heard, was even more confusing to be compared to what i saw. So you had your pick. Walk away you say? That is what i did. Cause i've heard more painful words than the ones you threw at me. "Not my...to question me.." So i know where and what my position is. If there is one person to apologize, it is you. And i'm not looking forward to it, cause to you, this is a "challenge", nothing is a serious matter. So there you go. :) I do miss you, i thought we meant something. It's okay. It means nothing now, cause i've heard to much to believe that this is worth fighting for.
Sticks and stones may break my bones, but words can never hurt me.
Sadly, yours did.
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