Because it's like that.

Middle Child: Old enough to be responsible for your actions, but too young for your opinions to count.

Foggy eyes, sleepless nights. Hopeful dreams, please take me away.

I fought, to be let down. 

I risked, to be cheated on. 

I let lose, to be torn apart. 

I hoped, to have it all,

snatched away. 

P.s: Screw you. 

Where did i go wrong?

Maybe i lost it all. Maybe this is the end. I give up. Not on life, but on trying.
It's funny how you once let me do anything i thought that was right, and now i'm left with something that you raised me up with. It's for my own good, yeah, but the nice people aren't around anymore. You don't know how lonely it gets being here, day after day hoping for a change when everyone who came left with the same excuse. I give it all up, i've done everything according to what everyone wants, but nothing for what i want. I went with what they thought was right, i went with their choices, i went with anything you and the world kept showing me was right, but i'm here. Here i am, still struggling for something my answers will never come to. I know you care, i know you all do. But when i needed you to care the most, you were never there, but here i am, getting it all, and you care cause im getting it? I dont even understand this whole thing. I don't know what and which, but im done. I can't be this corpse walking around with something i know i can't live without. You taught me how to live, and you should let me.. what am i doing wrong? I know you wan't to protect me, but its easy for you to say the things you want to, but you never understand what i'm going through, literal pain, inside out. Everything that comes out of me has, i don't know all over it. You probably won't get this pain. Is there anything else that is possibly to be taken? Take it all, just take it. Cause i've been giving and expecting nothing in return. Take it all! Just fuck off, when you have it. And let me tell you your final game, you lost. You lost.

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Insecurity is a bitch, bro.

Practice what you damn preach. 

You think the world revolves around what you think it should be like? Think again, cause when you walk out everyday keeping your head held so high, you mistake the indirect hate for reality and live with it. Who's losing? You are. Just because. Just because you think its right, it wont make it all right, you forget the whole idea of a stereotypical mind, in which the arrow is pointing directly at your head now. Admit it, you wont stand a chance next to the things i, or anyone would have to say about you, and the way you are, but i wont stoop so low. Ever heard of this word, "personality"? I'm sure you've not, cause the last time i checked, you are the only candidate running for the 'worst personality' category. So congrats, you won. Since you've always wanted to be on top, there, you have it. And the next time you come around asking ME to know what I'M saying, i'll remember to shove a fucking knife down your throat. And please, save the crap for someone with a same level of bullshit as you. Your argument is not accepted here. 

P.s: You just know how to ruin a good day.

This is about a life, just a life.

Rise up. 

Confidence? Yes, well, you don't know me that well then. I fought, till the end, cause helping the world starts from the smallest thing you see in your daily life. I'm sorry i didn't stand by you, you took me for granted love. I was there, without fail when you needed me. Day and night, just for you, but you just took me, and stomped so hard on the pieces that i tried holding on to. I did, i still fought. Cause i knew that my life was worth it because you got me out of my shell, you did.. but, you are the only one who is bringing me back into the shell.. i learnt and now i won't let myself there again, ever. Cause it will mean no effort to what you taught me. I love you, and you know that. But the pain i have to handle every time i feel this insecurity kills me and drags me down to a million miles and i keep needing to find the strength to get back up. I'll be here, always if you need me, but not as what i used to be. I'm sorry i can't be. I just know that if i'm there, we will end up being strangers which will sting even more than it feels now, cause you and i are like, more than what we are. Laughs, memories, pain, tears.. you were there. But, i guess i'm just giving it up.

 I can't take the pain anymore. I'm sorry. But i promise i will be there, always. 

P.s: I always did, more then you can imagine.

What is wrong?

Over thinking

Over thinking

Over thinking