Ooops!

I am better off dead.

Peut-être qu'un jour elle va comprendre notre amour.

Sometimes, there's no one in the world to blame, other then yourself. And half the time, i guess, i just like being the one taking the blame. Afterall, i am the one to be blamed. Sorry if you're reading this, but im guessing not, cause i doubt that you'd even know my url. She's judgemental. She's impossible. But one thing i understand is that, she feels like that little boy that used to follow her around, and be her shopping buddy is all grown up. He's living a life that she should accept and try and fit into, but instead you're giving him a hard time, by cursing and making him your house mate. You're lucky that he didn't go with the one that said, get out of the house, curse your mother, and live another life, scream back at her. Talk, try and explain.. Try and understand her, she's your mother. Does that sound like a bitch that is wanting to fucking run away with your son and make him a drug addict? Why can't people understand? I mean, is it so hard to just sit and listen to what one has to say before going around making nasty comments on others which you seemingly think that happens to be spoiling your son's life, image...ect. When you explain, things get better. Proven to work. And why isnt this working with you? What is it that you really want in life? Happiness? Education? Hell, im not sitting at home waiting to get wasted. I want to be someone too, be educated, to be rich, and happy. With a family that is going to be proud of me in the end. And it starts with ENCOURAGING. Not dissing him in public, to random passer by and to your relatives. Don't you see what you're doing? I really wish you'd change, cause in the end, you're going to regret not being able to do all of these for him. I really wish. Hurts to know that he's hurting, but hurts even more to know that you wont get it.

In the end, its love that matters. :)

I'm just gonna run right through the rain.

Memories, supposed to fade. What's wrong with your heart?

Sigh.

You won't get it, if i explained it to you, and you'll never feel it because i've never made you feel that way.

Only if you had the time, to actually check on me, everything would be alright. It's all wishful thinking.