Can't keep up..

: D
To many things to think about. Like school, exams, life, tuition, and you.
Add maths is killing my brain. I need to atleast pass my next paper. I can't keep failing. Blehh that.   : )
So, now, i'll go meditate to get that loose wires in my head tightened. =D hee

 That's what everyone says, the reason people pick the crap out of me. It's unfair. Really, never till it made me cry. Yeah, felt better after that. Sorry, i think it was my fault for asking on the first place. I don't mean to bitch about you on my blog, but it hurt me real bad. You should know. But, I forgive you .   : )  Byee.

Now, back to me.

Sectional at mini's was fun. Although i really didn't know what the hell they were joking about. I miss old times. I can't wait for band camp, cause now, we've got no Bandcomp..           :( well, its alright.. i bet band camp will be one to remember. Its the last.. :/ School, err, not that fun. I can't put up with "that" thing. : ( i feel bad, but really, give me a break. I've got a life too you know?? You've reached the limit and it won't be the nice me talking the next time. Ok, i need inspiration. I really can't draw A THING!!  : ( emo. help?

Shh... i didn't go school today. I was SICK! thanks to "some people"..haha : D

You dumbass, please stop hurting people. Why can't you go get someone else to pick on? :) Someone with the same sized brain like yours.

" Where you are is where I wanna be."

P.s: No heart feelings, yeah?

Who i wish you were.. : )

School - Friends (nothing to do) = Boredom.

I reached school at like 8.15 and the moment i stepped into the classroom,

i was called out. Teacher says, " Why is your class sooo Noisy!?!? Do you want me to come

and slapp each of you all!?!?"  -- yeah, i made noise when i barely stepped into my classroom. goshh.

So Annoyed!!.......now i'm fine.  : )

"I really think something is wrong somewhere. I want to know. Don't you?

                               Oh, finally. After months, we have sectionals. :) I can't wait to play 'Viva la vida'. Eeek!

Err, this is a lil something i wrote like long, long time ago.. (18 December 2009) Err, pls excuse the MAJOR errors. :D

“As I saw you walk towards me, with your eyes filled with sorrow, I swore I wouldn’t show a sign of sympathy. For everything you’ve done and said, I knew I didn’t feel sorry. But for letting you in, I did.

I felt you even closer this time. I remembered the scent that followed the breeze, it really melted my heart. I couldn’t bear to see you so miserable. All our memories emerged. I could feel the tears collect in my eyes.”

free..

"I've seen your act, and i know all the facts, but i'm still in love with who i wish you were.."

P.s: I'll continue the story in my next post.

P.s.s: I meant what i said. I really wish.. : /

(- -)

Im really, really, really Sleepy. Haven't Slept in ages.. sighs... 
GoodNight.  :)

As long as I'm laughing with you..
P.s: I can't imagine where i'm standing now.

Great day.

Such a great day. Everything seemed so Perfect. Seemed.
I loved maths today. Pn. Mano was laughing, at me. And Chi Yan, the great of course. She didn't complete her Add Maths homework, so she tried everything. Didn't work.

 "Heyy, prev, how to say 'im sorry' in tamil ah?"...*tells her.....
...* "teacher, (says Im sorry in tamil)
Teacher: Utter shock* Huh? Girl..*bursts out laughing... at the same time, forgets Chi Yan hasn't completed her Homework, LOL!! Smart la you..

yeah, another great thing happened. I was stuck in school for FRIGGIN 2 hours!!!
yeah, dad was in gombak. Forgot to tell me. -- haihh..nvm
yeah , got home.. TIDURR....

<3
happyhappyhappyhappy Birthday Claree!!!
haha.. LOVE you crazy person!! <3 Hope ya have a AWESOME day ahead..

How'd i survive when i could barely speak?
P.s: I miss you..haha  :(

Mixed emotions..

Argghhh!
I want to Blogg, i dont want to. But i'll do it anyways..
Warning, this is an Emo post.

I feel, oh, so blue.. Haihh..I can't think straight. I don't know what to feel. Literally. I can't even take my pencil to draw. I mean, everything that comes along is veryveryemo... I had a fun time over at Elysia's. Doing Bio, playing guitar heroes. I fell flat. (I failed)

I can't imagine tomorrow's back to back, Chemistry and Biology. --
HELP ME!!  I can't do this. I feel like a bag of mixed emotions. I can't keep track of my thoughts. I'm suddenly not worried about my homework. All complete..
I feel like i'm forgetting things. As in, not on purpose. I need a brain check up. No joke, i'm serious.
Suddenly i feel like i've lost trust in me. And the people around, too. *Sorry  I can't tolerate my mind. It's really confused..

* Heavy sighs..
Unexplainable feeling, i don't want to feel.. Why did Mr. Feeling pick me? Why pick you, i don't know.. don't ask me. x(
Told you it was emo..

I want a simple explanation for what I'm feeling inside..

P.s: You know, you're unlike any other...

Reminisce..

I really have nothing do. I mean, other than homework of course. Fb, Msn..This.

I love my door, have i told you? Its like my wall of feelings in drawing form. : ) I've scribbled all my sweet, emotional, scary memories on it. And most importantly, names of all my best buds. ALL. I love looking at it. Really. But sometimes, when memories that really hurt, come by, can't do anything. Its not like a piece of paper that you can like squash and fling it somewhere... memories hurt. : /

There's a place within our hearts

Where we keep our favorite memories,
The ones that never fail to make us smile..
And when life becomes too hectic
It's such a special feeling
To close our eyes and reminisce awhile. :)


It takes time. As you said. I want everthing the way it was before. And for that, i'll wait. Somethings are meant to be this way for a reason. I can't tell what, but its just the way things are, right?

"Make the right choice. At this point, your heart is the only answer. Listen to it. You won't regret"

I sound like grandma, but, i can tell she's right. :) Love you granny. Come back home, FASTER!! 

Tonight, i'm going to find a way to make it without you.
P.s: Do what seems right to your heart. Don't  heal one by hurting yours.. <3

-_-

Don't Provoke Me.
Why is everyone doing this to me. I've got tons of paper works to hand in FOR SCHOOL. I'm not wasting my time. I want to do this. Help me, or just leave me alone. You just don't get what i've got to face. I wanna cry my head out. I can't. And again, you forget what you told me, then shout at me. I don't like being shouted at, especially when i'm stressed out. It just gets even worst. Like you don't know how it feels. Sighs.
I miss being young. Nothing much to worry about.

Thanks for being a wall. : )

Love.

It's really, really sweet.. :')

I wonder if you know
that every night before i go to sleep
I pray 2 times
One prayer for me
And the other one for you


I wonder If u know
That I ask God To keep you safe
I ask him,to bless you with happiness
And keep Sorrow From ur way


I wonder if you know
That having you guys is like
having my own collection of stars
Always shinning in my way
For you,I'll fight a thousand wars

I wonder if you know
That when ur sad
I get sad to
Because ur happiness is my own
And I hate to see you down

And I'll continue to wonder
If I do enough,To let you know
How much I care


And I wonder if you know
That u can always count on me
I am right next to you
And i forever will be


I wonder if you know
That you People mean this World to me
And If it wasnt for you,
I wouldn't not be here

I wonder if you know
That I'll risk my life
to safe ur own

I wonder if you know
That ur the best thing that ever happend to me
Trough this bumpy ride
Called L.I.F.E


And I wonder if you know
That I Wrote this From the heart
Because today we are all together
But tomorrow we might fall apart

I Wonder if you know
That i had to let you know
That I mean every single word

Because I Wonder if you know
That Tomorrow,One of us could Leave
Without saying Goodbye
And I'll never Know When I'll see You all again

For that means,I will always Leave you,With Loving words...

For All Me Friends!! All of you!! 

Laugh Out Loud!! xD

Words can't describe this..  Love.

                                                                                                                                                  

   Crappy Moments...

We've been through so much together,
In so little time we've shared..

I will never forget all the moments,

that you've shown, how much you cared..

For You!!  :)

Our bond is extremely special,

It is unique in it's own way..

We have something irreplaceable,

I love you more and more each day...

And for you. :D

Love You Both!!

"My true friends brighten up my days so that the only darkness in my life is their shadow.."

P.s: When are we going out again? xD

Where to go, when its all gone?

I wanna see how far this can go.
Yes Id rather hurt than feel nothing at all.
Its a quarter after one, Im all alone and I need you now.
And I said I wouldnt call but Im a little drunk and I need you now.
And I dont know how I can do without, I just need you now.

Priceless..

2010Sports Day!It was a BLAST! haha. Ok, first of all, hats off to Avatar. 
CLARE!! you guys were awesome. Second place, its Big. Go Clare.
FRANCIS!! YAY!!! 
BAND!!!  LOVE!
Haha, well, its our last year of sports day with all our senoirs. No, with all our Awesome, Fun, Lovable, Darling Besties. LOVE YOU ALL!! yes, we cried. I really can't imagine the band without these Monkeys..  ): Though, i know you guys will be in our lifes for a very long time. I Do. It will be hard, but, its has to go on.    AMB♥    Band comp, here we come. xD 
* It really was a Priceless Moment. Tu me manques ♥

LOVE.

That should be ME.

Ain't Fair You Know?
Such a tiring day. I can imagine how Band Competition Practice will be..  ==
Some complain when they've gone through less than 5% of what 'we' did. Crappy..
I just don't feel the Sports Day spirit. It's like nothing. Literally. Sighs.
Talking bout practice, I bet i've TONS of homework to do. Its really good to know.
 Go Clare !!  :) Hope ya'll win it this Friday too.

I need reasons. It's unfair to me, you know.. The ones to be blamed are given royal treatment, while i'm ignored, when i've done nothing wrong. I know what goes on. But you, don't. When you should, to know that i'm not wrong. I was never wrong.
You on the other hand, should stop treating me like a dog. I acctually do what you ask me to. So be a little more appreciative. I don't like being bossed around this way. I've a heart too, you know? I'm just like you, HUMAN. I don't like it when you you shout at me, then expect me to give you what you need. QUIT IT!

Love.

P.s:  I Can't. I Won't.

Here,take your heart.

It tore with me  : /
P.s: I didn't want to, but i had to. Sorry.

Dreamy!

BOY you are so HOTT i can't get you outta my head!!
Ahhh.......* faints.....