Where did i go wrong?

Maybe i lost it all. Maybe this is the end. I give up. Not on life, but on trying.
It's funny how you once let me do anything i thought that was right, and now i'm left with something that you raised me up with. It's for my own good, yeah, but the nice people aren't around anymore. You don't know how lonely it gets being here, day after day hoping for a change when everyone who came left with the same excuse. I give it all up, i've done everything according to what everyone wants, but nothing for what i want. I went with what they thought was right, i went with their choices, i went with anything you and the world kept showing me was right, but i'm here. Here i am, still struggling for something my answers will never come to. I know you care, i know you all do. But when i needed you to care the most, you were never there, but here i am, getting it all, and you care cause im getting it? I dont even understand this whole thing. I don't know what and which, but im done. I can't be this corpse walking around with something i know i can't live without. You taught me how to live, and you should let me.. what am i doing wrong? I know you wan't to protect me, but its easy for you to say the things you want to, but you never understand what i'm going through, literal pain, inside out. Everything that comes out of me has, i don't know all over it. You probably won't get this pain. Is there anything else that is possibly to be taken? Take it all, just take it. Cause i've been giving and expecting nothing in return. Take it all! Just fuck off, when you have it. And let me tell you your final game, you lost. You lost.