It's this bad right now.

                 When you least expect things to happen, that's when they do. Let it be good, or bad, it still happens as it wish.

                      I want to cry so hard right now, but i can't. Guess this is life. No one will come to help. And in this war, its you and the world. I miss you so much. But i know i just can't go back there. I want to blame you, but i know you're not the only one in fault. I wish things we'rent this way, and everything was easier. I wish my life didn't need no one to depend on, but now its just a lesson i need to learn. Over stressing myself with things i don't want to look at. It's such a pathetic life. Here i am, in my college computer lab, the same way i was, 5 years back, feeling lost with regrets in front of my computer. My faith is shaking. I need to know, so many things. And i know i can't never get the answers no matter how hard i search. Then there's you, and me. With problems unsolved. Words unspoken. And lies, you'd never admit. What did i do, right? It's stupid to think that once i almost believed in forever. That guy was right, it'll never last if it was not meant to be, yet i fought. Look where it brought me. Yes, i've neglected so many people. Yes, i feel like a worthless friend, but look at you. You never did that great yourself either. I admit i was being so reluctant, but you never tired. You never gave in the chance to yourself to believe that you we're once in that situation when i met you. I was always there, guess you never knew how to look. I miss it all. And i wish i could back into time, to change the mistakes i made. To start new. Not from where i am.

             P.s: You'll never know what i really meant.