Am i tripping back on what i walked pass?

Am i? 

Choosing what to feel. Is that how things work in the real world? Messing words up in your head, trying to get it phrased right before saying it. Aren't we living the idea of the universe that controls all doings and leave us with one choice, fate. Dwelling back on what used to be, being told over and over makes you actually wonder if that is what you really feel. Do i? Does it? Every morning we wake up hoping that we feel better, slowly forgetting what used to hurt, moving on to what makes us feel alive. Then you feel like this isn't reality. And you sit there, thinking why did we choose to let this happen. And then what if it does, happen again? What if? Why does the brain work in such a way, leaving you in the mid of a horror movie with no end; there's literally no way out.

Help me find a way out, don't mix my path up.

Itstimetoletitgo..