What's the point.

I am not worth your fight. So i will not stand in your way, any more. Last post, for the year, and all the years to come. Good bye bloggy. I'll miss you.

What happens next?

 

Cause there is no guarantee, that this love is easy. 

It chokes.

Wanting to say, and not wanting to say. It's the hardest thing to be put through. But when you can't speak up to both the best thing you have in life, then you're just lonely. Why really, why?

Hearing those words, it makes me weak.

What is your purpose? 

At some point in life, things will change. What is eternity? What does forever mean?

We are one of those few who used to believe in fairy tales and now we barely believe in dreams. It's a mind blowing change. You probably wont believe it happened to you. But sometimes in life, you just wish you had that one chance to change it all, and make it better. Not having to sit there, and wonder why it went the way it did. Knowing yourself is hard, now think about knowing someone. Married couples, best friends of years, siblings, do they really know each other? Or do we just pretend that we know each other well so we can cut the chase and come to where they believe that we're inseparable? Does forever really exist? Cause we all believed in it once, are we fools? Maybe we're the believers. 

Times when you just want to let the phone ring so you wont have to put up another "i'm strong" act to convince someone that you're perfectly alright. But then again, the fear that, that call might have been something important and you just put your guard down, take the call, and feel worse cause your pain was barely noticeable. Then you think about making it stand out. Cut your hand, let it bleed. They all come running. But your heart has been bleeding, day and night, but no one notices or even cares. They like what they see on the outside. Beauty, for an instance. Has anyone ever loved someone just for what they are made of, really who?

I just want to be alone tonight, i just want to take a little breather. Cause lately all we do is fight, and every time it cuts me deeper. Cause something's changed you've been acting so strange and its taking a toll on me.. -Hinder

P.s: This isn't a sad post.

What's the point anyway?

Driven by motivations and dropping in the "don't care" zone. I'm out. 

There are much bigger things in life that needs a change and some of what run through your mind isn't close to what it is. Dream big, achieve it, and don't let anyone take you for granted. Being strong by heart, bulletproof shield. 

Ain't nobody got time for that! 

Sometimes, lonely is not sad. 

Where did my soul go?

"You are stronger than you realize.
You are cruel-er than you realize.
The smallest words will break your heart.
You will change. You’re not the same person you were three years ago.You’re not even the same person you were three minutes ago and that’s okay. Especially if you don’t like the person you were three minutes ago.
People come and go. Some are cigarette breaks, others are forest fires.
You won’t like your name until you hear someone say it in their sleep.
You’ll forget your email password but ten years from now you’ll still remember the number of steps up to his flat.
You don’t have to open the curtains if you don’t want to.
Never stop yourself text-ing someone. If you love them at 4 a.m., tell them. If you still love them at 9.30 a.m., tell them again.
Make sure you have a safe place. Whether it’s the kitchen floor or the Travel section of a bookshop, just make sure you have a safe place.
You will be scared of all kinds of things, of spiders and clowns and eating alone, but your biggest fear will be that people will see you the way you see yourself.
Sometimes, looking at someone will be like looking into the sun. Sometimes someone will look at you like you are the sun. Wait for it.
You will learn how to sleep alone, how to avoid the cold corners but still fill a bed.
Always be friends with the broken people. They know how to survive.
You can love someone and hate them, all at once. You can miss them so much you ache but still ignore your phone when they call.
You are good at something, whether it’s making someone laugh or remembering their birthday. Don’t ever let anyone tell you that these things don’t matter.
You will always be hungry for love. Always. Even when someone is asleep next to you you’ll envy the pillow touching their cheek and the sheet hiding their skin.
Loneliness is nothing to do with how many people are around you but how many of them understand you.
People say I love you all the time. Even when they say, ‘Why didn’t you call me back?’ or ‘He’s an asshole.’ Make sure you’re listening.
You will be okay.
You will be okay."