I'm not crazy, am I?

I'm not crazy! 

Maybe i've just gone too far, too soon. Hoped for just a little too much that i should have. Wished on a star that never made a comeback. Trusted my instinct, which ended up being my thoughts all along. Where did i go wrong? Just one day, one day where i don't need to feel anything at all.. Just one day.. 

Sigh.

Oh little owl, how i wish you were real.. But, i promise.

Physically fit, mentally dead.

I'm on the edge. 

Brain dead. 

I wonder how that feels.  

Pushed to the limit after fighting a war. You've walked a thousand mile to reach to where you're at, and a thousand more depends on your mental state. Negativity. Emotional breakdown. All that you do, everything you try, just keeps pushing you back, and back to where you started. We've come too far. It hits you right at the middle, where you feel the most, where you keep the most, where you've shield the most. When you feel like you've made a huge mistake and no matter how much you try, it's never going to be okay. Maybe it will be okay. Who knows. It's a never ending journey, unless you forcefully end it. 

Do you want to build a snowman?

What about now? 

When the fear kicks in, you really have no choice. 

She really got used to having that little piece of paper with her at every time. Maybe it wasn't just the time to let it go. Never having something and wanting it is far more different that having something and letting it go. It's a harder choice, or no choice at all? "I lost myself," she said.. When will you find her? 

P.s: You'd be killing me in the most painful way, if you left.